Welcome to Judith's Crystal Cave Teachings, my virtual home.
Here is where I share my thoughts on spirituality, life, humor, Crystals, and various topics I hope people will find interesting. We are far more than we know. We all have magic within us, waiting to be tapped into. I want to support that awakening, that recognition of what we are: Eternal souls on a journey through space and time, here to evolve, learn, and grow. All that I've learned from the teachers in my life, the elders, the animals, the stones, the trees, the elements, the stars, and all that I am, is shared here, in this space. My training in Classical Chinese Medicine, ( and Taoism ), including the Stones, 5-Element theory, Essential Oils, and herbs, Astrology, and my insights as a Clairvoyant Empath are all shared here. With empathy, love, and my bizarre sense of humor, I am honored to share my perspectives on this Earth walk with you.
One of the great loves in my life has always been nature, especially what native people call "The Stone People". I have been working with, and teaching about Crystals and Minerals for most of my life. All of the indigenous cultures around the world describe the stones as the oldest living beings on the planet. The Taoists consider them to be the most powerful healing modality that there is. Part of the reason I started my website was to introduce these Master Healers to people unfamiliar with them, since most people have limited access to a Taoist Master or a native elder. Most books available today focus on either the metaphysical properties of stones, or the mineralogical make-up of the stones. I wanted to offer material that is ancient, from my decades of study, along with my direct experiences, dreams, and visions with the stones as an Alchemist, Clairvoyant Empath and Mystic.
My home is filled with a Shaman's tools, drums, rattles, feathers, art, Stones, Essential Oils, Herbs, Sage, Sweetgrass, tobacco for ceremony... All of these things combine together to create an energy that is healing for all who enter, and to challenge the trance-like state western culture creates in us, which inhibits and blocks us from achieving our true potential. This part of my website is designed to do that, to challenge that trance state, offering a different perspective on life that includes magic, and an opportunity to explore other dimensions and realities.
My actual home in real life is very unusual, a geodesic dome and subterranean home built into the side of a hill, with 35 tons of Calcite boulders that create the ceiling. A true Crystal Cave, unique and magical. I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. I wanted to have, and make available for my clients, an environment for people to experience the Earth as it truly is, from an Indigenous culture perspective: Powerful, nurturing, magical, and Sacred. I want to invite people to embark on a journey into the mystical, the supernatural, where all living things are connected as one heart. And I want to include laughter, because laughter brings us into the moment more quickly than anything except love. So expect some snippets of my life that hopefully will make you smile.
Come on a journey with me.
It’s important in life to keep updating how you see yourself. I’ve been many things in my life, and all of them have been accurate at a given time. I’m an incest survivor, and a survivor of domestic violence. As a child, I was prey. I was hunted by my offender. No place was safe. I was raped and tortured for years. Yet, somehow, I always remained connected to Source. I was prey in my marriage. After years of emotional and physical abuse, I walked away from my marriage and started my life over. I’m living proof that anything is possible, with enough fierceness, faith, and determination.
Sometimes I watch the news, and see some people holding forth with their opinions on women, the #MeToo movement, on domestic violence, or sexual abuse. And I’m astounded by their arrogance, and their hubris. I wonder, as I’m watching these pundits, how many of these men have taken a fist to the face? Been choked until they lost consciousness? Been spit on, dragged by the hair, been threatened with death? How many of them have known terror, from the earliest age, and have not only survived, but worked to become an advocate, a defender of the innocent? So, what do they know about courage?
For all of us who have survived the unspeakable, and have chosen to live from compassion and empathy, watching people who have no fucking idea about courage offer their opinions is an exercise in patience. So here’s what I know. I have been prey. I will never be prey again. I’m a Phoenix, risen out of the ashes. I’m a Dragon. I’m a hunter of the darkness that assaults the innocent. I am fearless, because I have survived. I’m a healer. I’m a guardian. I’m a teacher. I’m a mystic. I’m a badass bitch that suffers no fools.
I share my story, so that others beginning their journey of healing see that anything is possible. Believe in yourself. You have the light within you. You are not prey. You are the thunder, the lightning, the wind. Redefine yourself as the person that you are today: strong, free, and unafraid. Many of us have done this, and you can, too. Be patient with yourself. Give yourself the kindness and love that you didn’t get when you needed it the most. Become the badass that you have within you. Trust me, it’s in there. This is your moment. Seize it, and start over. I am with you, the Hunter. The Healer. We are one heart. Blessings, Judith
Each blend of Chinese herbs we take offers different teachings. This recent formula has been incredibly powerful for me. Over the past few years, I’ve been clearing a virus out of my system using Chinese herbs. (Western medicine has no way to remove a virus.) Operating under the premise that all illness is an invitation to change, the basic principle of Classical Chinese medicine, I’ve been focused on what the root cause of the virus might be, and releasing it. Each formula has brought up something different. This one was no exception.
I’ve talked about being an Empath before, and what that means. Over the past 40 years, my work as a counselor has focused on working with survivors of sexual abuse, domestic violence, survivors of narcissistic abuse, ( people in relationships with personality disordered individuals, people with mental illness, or addicts), and working with high-risk adolescents. That last group, while being difficult, was probably the most important out of all of them, for me.
The first high-risk teen I worked with was in 1993. A friend asked me to see his 14 year old daughter, who was in a very volatile place. She had already chewed up and spat out two other therapists. My initial reaction was, oh, fuck no. I hadn’t worked with many kids. And this was like jumping into the deep end of the pool. He begged me to reconsider, saying that I was his last resort. Oh, goody. No pressure, though. She was drinking, drugging, acting out sexually, and was a cutter. ( Self-injurious). She was defiant when she arrived for her first session. She was defiant for the first few months. She didn’t trust me, and made that perfectly clear. Trying to reach her was challenging, to say the least. I was close to giving up, until during one session, she said, “ Can I ask you a question “? Me: Sure. Her: Do you think it’s okay, that sometimes I still play with my Barbies? Me: ( In my head, oh, my god, she’s just a baby.) And in that moment I knew I was totally fucked, because she had me. She had my heart, and I was completely committed to keeping her on the planet, while she was doing her level best to self destruct. Yep. Fucked.
Our journey together was incredible. She learned to trust. She got into 12-Step recovery. She worked with Taoist Master Dr. Yuen, and drank nasty tasting herbs. She learned to meditate. She connected to her Higher Self. To Spirit. She blossomed. (She’s 38 now, is a vibrant, courageous, and loving woman.)
Another one was also 14. She had been in and out of rehab. She came for a few months, and began to stabilize. At that point, her Borderline mother decided that she didn’t need any more therapy. I suggested that that was not the case. But, that was it. I got a frantic call from the mother a few months later, that the daughter had run away, and they had no idea where she was. Could I help? I had a number of kids seeing me, going to the same school. I asked if anyone had seen her. Yes, actually, she was in class that day. I got a note to her, asking her if I could come to the school and talk to her. Yes, she said. I went the next day, and waited for school to get out. And there she was, in a group of kids, her hair was matted, she was a mess. She saw me, and ran to me. I hugged her. She agreed to come home with me. We got her cleaned up and fed. I contacted her parents. She went home. Then I found out that they had institutionalized her. Their insurance company wouldn’t pay for another rehab, so they put her in a mental hospital. I asked her parents if I could see her. They agreed to take me to the hospital. When we got inside, she again ran to me, sobbing. She wrapped herself around me like a koala, and wouldn’t let go. She was begging me not to leave her there. “ Please, Jude. Please. Don’t leave me here. I know I need a rehab, but not this. I’m scared”. The hardest thing I ever had to do in my life was to leave that child there. I lobbied all the way home with her parents, to find another solution for her. When I got home, I laid down on my bed. Sobbing. Devastated. We did find another place for her, a high school for high-risk adolescents. She graduated, and went on to nursing school.
So, somehow, the word spread that I could reach the wounded kids. The kids others had given up on. They found me. One after another. Sometimes, the kids would tell their friends about me, and one of them would call me, and ask for help. I never said no. And I fell in love with each and every one of them. I never saw them as kids. I saw them as baby dragons. Old, powerful souls that were fearless about everything. It was an honor to be trusted by them. And they all healed. I became a minister because of them. I found out that clergy could not be denied access to hospitals and prisons. I figured that was a plus, given what some of them were doing.
These kids all had one thing in common. They all had survived at least one mentally ill, alcoholic, or personality disordered parent. Sometimes both. What I learned was that if they had just one person in their lives that truly cared about them, loved them, they could heal. Sometimes, that one person was me. Now, loving humanity is easy for me. I’m an Empath. But here’s what’s hard for me, which brings me back to the title of this post: Shedding.
I very consciously absorb into myself some of the pain of a client, if I see that they need help processing trauma. That’s not a problem. The problem is that sometimes, I don’t realize that I haven’t let it go. It’s still floating around inside of me, invisible. Last night, I saw a clip from a movie someone had posted. It was brutal. It was a scene of an 8 year old little girl, following her narcissistic father out to his car, begging him to take her with him, while her mother stood back, watching. Knowing what that asshole was going to do. And let the father reject her, and ignore her pleading. And drive away, leaving her sobbing and devastated on the street. Who was the worst parent, the narcissist driving away, or the mother that did nothing to protect her child from the emotional abuse she knew was coming? ( She had been married to him, after all). That scene gutted me. It triggered an avalanche of very specific memories of all of those kids in my practice. Their pain. Their bewilderment. Their tears. Their grief. It was an endless, excruciating loop of traumatized kids playing in my head, complete with sound, color, and vivid detail. And that’s when I got it. I had absorbed some of that, yes. But until that moment, I had no idea it was ALL STILL IN ME. Son of a bitch. I immediately got to work releasing it. I already feel lighter. I also wanted to smack the living shit out of the characters in the movie.
Snake Medicine is about alchemy. A snake sheds its skin as it grows. For me, the teaching here is about shedding. It’s about the importance of releasing everything that no longer serves us. If we don’t release, we can’t grow the way we need to. We’re going to be stuck in the old skin, constricted by it.
There was no reason for me to have held on to any of that old pain. ( All of those people are adults now, with wonderful lives. I officiated at the weddings of two of them. That brought me incredible joy.) The startling thing is, I had no idea it was still in there, a vast untapped reservoir of other people’s grief. Clearly, this is a soul pattern for me, and for many of us. This is my invitation to change. To immediately release what I have absorbed, after every session. To trust the person’s process. To trust Spirit. To give the best that’s in me in that moment, and trust that it’s enough. I’m ready.
To all of those wonderful souls I had the privilege of working with, I’m so proud of you all. You are fierce and fearless warriors. I’m so honored to have been a part of your journey. You all taught me so much. Be proud of yourself. You’re all miraculous. You humble me. I send you all love. Always. Blessings, Judith
** Kinuko Craft’s painting of the Medusa.**
February starts with some really good aspects. Saturday, February 2nd has the Moon in Capricorn making two powerful conjunctions, a sextile, and a trine. The conjunctions are to both Saturn and Pluto, two heavy hitters. This is an alignment that brings deep insights, X-ray vision into the subconscious, along with the tenacity to bring old wounds to the surface, to be released and healed. The sextile is to Neptune, the planet of grace and divine love. This is a very high vibe.
2/4 is the New Moon, with the Sun and Moon conjunct in Aquarius. This is a wonderful day for new beginnings. Another good day is 2/7, with the Moon in Pisces. There are several good aspects that day, both to the Sun and the Moon. Other good days are the 10th and 12th, with a number of opportunities for flow.
2/16 is a mixed bag, somewhat challenging, with the Moon in sensitive and nurturing Cancer in opposition to both Saturn and Pluto. This can trigger feelings of fear and insecurity. Or, a desire to walk away from everything. It will pass quickly.
The Sun enters Pisces on 2/18, with the Full Moon on the 19th. Again, a positive vibe, it’s a Supermoon, yes, but it has a lot of support. The Moon trines both Uranus and Mars. This can activate anybody, and get things moving.
The 22nd is also somewhat challenging, with the Moon in Libra, the sign of justice and laws. Any old feelings of being treated unfairly, or of old betrayals may surface to be released. Libra is an Air sign, a part of the Metal Element in Chinese Medicine. It’s about holding on and letting go. Let go of anything that no longer serves you, including an attachment to being right.
The Moon moves into Scorpio on 2/23 and 2/24, both really good days.
The month ends with two more good days, the 27th and 28th, with optimism, and a willingness to change. Take advantage of that.
May February bring you peace, and the beauty you deserve. Blessings, Judith